More Worries

{Kitten walks in blog sadly with fluffy tail dragging the floor and little head down cast} It has not been the best day today. Nothing personally happened to me today but for those close, it has been a rather ruff day. My brother's cat Blue, died this morning. I can't say that I was particularly close to Blue but I was sad for my brother because he had Blue since he was a kitten.

While that was sad, I got some extremely upsetting news from Cowgirl just an hour ago. You see, Cowgirl is nine months pregnant and she found out yesterday that something is wrong with placenta. She didn't tell me what the condition was called but is extremely dangerous for the baby. As of right now, the vital signs for him are all right but if she doesn't go into labor soon, there could be complications. I forgot to say that Cowgirl is past her due date. Her doctor is a complete idiot though! First off, she almost let Cowgirl get pneumonia. She kept telling her that she just had a cold. Finally, after being in the hospital three times, she went to see my father, who is her primary doctor and he put her antibiotics but it could have gotten really bad if she had waited any longer. Now, she won't do anything about this! Even Christina's mother, who has been a registered nurse for 20 some year and holds a masters said that the doctor needs to do something. She at least needs to be going in ofter to check the baby's vital signs. She told Cowgirl that th baby might have kidney problems, which was were upsetting for her. I wish there was something I could do for her. Hopefully, she will go into labor on her own in the next few days.

  

Worries

I started my Personality Psych class today. It seems like it will be very interesting but demanding. Thankfully, the only homework we have is to read the chapters and listen in class. The professor is funny and I think that he will make the class interesting. We are doing powerpoint { apart of me died we he said that} but he doesn't recite from it thankfully, so I won't be wanting to fall asleep in class out of sheet boredome. The only thing that I don't really like about this class is that the chapters are long; about 35-45 pages long. It's accounting all over again : (

On another annoying note, Donna over at the Clinton office is off on vacation. Swaim wants me to work over there during the day, but, hello, I have class and school work. One of the main reasons that I am taking summer classes is so that I don't have to be at work all day and I won't be so stressed. I'm fine with just the class but when he throws work in afterwards, it just ruins my entire day. I have to do homework after I get off, for goodness sake. I told Swaim to tell Alberta that I would be there Tuesday and Wednesday after 1 and on Friday from 8-11:45. I can't work all day because I have an appointment with my advisor at 1.

I was reading a blog that I haven't read in a while. Real Princess Diaries is an interesting blog and I find Alexa so uninhibitied. I wish I had just a little of her I don't give a damn attitude but alas I don't. She was talking about gang banging and how liberating it was for her. While there are many thing that I would like to do, gang banging, is not one of them. Although, in a way, I can sort of understand her appeal.

There are somethings regarding sex, however, that I wish I didn't have an attraction to. That or I wish I had been raised in a more liberal household. I have been trying to hide my head in the sand when it comes to my attraction to women but it isn't working. But am I really bi-sexual or just curious? I try not to think about it but thoughts keep poping up in my head. What am I supposed to do? I feel so torn. In a way I would like to explore this but know that morally it is wrong. I cannot help how I feel but I can help how I react to my emotions. I would be a hypocrite if I did it any other way. If I could just get it out of my mind. When the fall term starts, I'm sure that I'll be too busy to wonder. Let's hope anyway.

Speaking of the fall term, I really hope that I get along with my new roommate. That's actually my biggest worry: that I'll get with someone who I just cannot get along with or that I am uncomfortable with. Preferably, I would like a transfer student because then we could get to know the campus and people together vs being put with a girl who has been there for 2 years and already has a group of friends. I should find out in the next two week. I'm keeping my fingers crossed.