Kitten huffs and puffs as she drags her heavy laptop into the blog behind her. Right not I am working on my Security class projects, of which I am very much behind. I'm running some sort of scan and it looks like it is going to take awhile, so I thought that I'd drop in.

I'm rather excited. It might be possible that I have a few new blogs to read. They are not near as good{definetely not as juicy} as my last ones but, my favorites are no longer around, so Kitten must move on. This particular blog that I am excited about is not one written by a lady of the night, but she still has a rather unique point of view that I like. Actually, she has several books out. I have just started to read one of them and love it. I haven't yet decided if her blog is interesting enough, though. I might do some investigating later tonight.

Kitten is rather uncertain how her current relationship with Mark is going to turn out. There nothing there. No spark, passion, not even common interest, and the biggest thing is I haven't heard from him in a week. I'm not sad but I feel the need to return his ring to Christina. I feel ackward wearing it when I feel absolutely nothing for the guy. I guess, I was a little intrigued in the beginning, but I've seem to have lost interest. Wow, for some reason that sounds so mean but I can't help it. He's a nice guy but we don't have one thing in common, I'm not attracted to him, and he holds none of the qualities that I am looking for.

Kitten trots into blog restlessly. Did you ever have one of those days were you wish you were some one, preferably, some with a more interesting life than your own. That's how I felt today. It wasn't a bad day, actually, for a Saturday, it went extremely well. It lacked any excitement, though. I feel so...I don't bored, for lack of a better word. I want to do something interesting but even if I had the oppurtunity, I couldn't do it anyway.

I have so much homework. Accounting, Accounting Problems, and French take the most time. Between those three, I easily spend five to six hours a day doing homework. I didn't come here tonight to rant about homework woes, though.

I don't know what to do about my "relationship that I refered to last post in January." The name that I used for him has escaped me at present and I this kitten is feeling rather lazy at the moment so we will call him Mark.

He will be going back from basic soon and then he'll want to really get into a relationship but I'm not sure if I'm ready. I know I need to be upfront with him about what I want and not want in this relationship. He needs to know that I am unsure about marriage and that I can't be there all the time because of my homework. My work is the most important thing. As long as he is fine with a rather loose, non restricting, maybe a little unconventual relationship we'll be ok. I also need to point out the fact that I am pro life and if that did come up, I wouldn't be getting rid of the baby. I feel like these points are the most important. In past relationships{excluding James} I was not always open and upfront about how I felt and what I really wanted but I'm not doing that this time.

I feel like I need a change in my life. I need more than just a boyfriend. I feel like a need a change in my style of extra studying. This spring/ summer I think I'm going for a much more sophicated but sexy look. This year I had a very relaxed casual style but I want to spice things up this year. As for the extra studying goes, I'm defintely sticking with my courtesan/escort doscoveries because I find the whole area fascinating. I have also decided to look more into art and maybe branch into computers a little more extensively. I have though about making a blog for my projects but at the moment I have people from school stopping here every now and then to look at the Security blog that is for my Security class. I'm not ashamed at what I am looking into but I do like being discrete.

Well Kitten is rather tired after being up till 2 in the morning and is ready to head to her velevt cushion and take a long kitty nap. Night-Night:)

A Boring Saturday

Kitten is rather bored today. Saturday's are usually not that exciting. I have work from 7:30-1:00, then work down in my hometown for awhile, Mass from 4:15-5:15, then homework. Alas, I'm afraid that my Lil sis usually has much more fun on Saturdays then me.

The rest of today, from 5:30 on, is going to be devoted to Systems Anaysis and Design. I have three assignments that need to get done but the second I am a little stechy about. I might email Lana tomorrow and make sure that was the right one before I do it. I would email her tonight but I doubt she would get back with me.

Kitten is sad. Tomorrow is Sunday which means that this little kitten has to get her tail back to dorn:( I don't want to! Why can't it be two weeks from now and all the finals were over with? That would make me so happy. Well, I guess it is just two more weeks.

The only final I have to worry about is Statistics. That's my only cumulative final and its not going to be fun, either. I think the professor said the test usually took about 2 1/2 hrs. Some one shoot me now and put me out of my mesiery.

Speaking of Stats, that is what Sunday is going to revolve around, getting those projects started and doing the homework which isn't really alot. I have a feeling we are going to be having a test in Stats next Friday. I will be so glad when I am out of it.

I've been feeling so discontent and restless here lately. I don't know why exactly except that I might be suffering from burn out. I haven't been doing much, though, although, that might change over Christmas Break...;)