Kitten's Spring Break

{In trots into blog after a very busy week} I can't believe Spring Break is already almost over but just 8 weeks left till Summer vacation : ) This has been a rather dramatic week. My half brother was being an idot and causing all kinds of trouble, I finally got to talk with James, and unfortunately, I was not able to see my Lil Sis as much as I would have liked.

I was supposed to see James today but I called him Wednesday and told him that a phone call would have to work because I had some things to do Friday. Anyway, I found that Aurora is going to have a baby! Which would explain some earlier drama that I had been left out of over the last couple of months. She is 4 1/2 months along so should have him or her sometime in August. Unfortunately I'm not sure when I will be able to see her and then baby since school will start back up again in August also.

Lil Sis, her new boyfriend, and moi went to town and had a nice time last Saturday. I had met him last August but just for a few minutes so I did not really get a chance to talk to him. I had a nice time and he seems like a nice guy. We went to PetLand and tried to hold a puppy but we were not able to because they were so busy. Then we we went over to the mall and walked around. Lil Sis, grudgingly told me that he was very amused at the way I tortured Lil Sis. I told her that now she had a purpose to all the pain I cause she had to be in the entertainment lol.

The the one thing that was a little disheartening about this Spring Break was that other than today, the weather has been fairly cold and damp. However, it usually is which is why I wish they would wait a few weeks to have it but, of course, they're not.

I have a new artist I found that I plan to write on soon. Bye bye till then

Just another Day

It's been such a long time since I have posted anything! Kitten must apologize but it was a rather busy four months. I have started at my new college and, while I really miss my old one, Kitten is starting to get used to here. The hardest part was that there are so many people where as, in my old college, we had a very small campus. I admit, I miss my Lil Sis. It has felt odd not having her room with me.

My new roommates are not from around here, Monique is from New Jersey and Insa is from Egypt. I like both of them but I'm so busy I have had hardly anytime to talk with them. They are both busy also, being graduate students.

I have 7 classes but my favorite is modern art history. I have been wanting to take a class like this for some time but could never fit it into my schedule. It interesting to learn about how all the things in that time period influenced the picture. It just gives you a whole new view of it. There have been several that we have talk about in class that I, before hand, I just did not understand or like, until we talk about them and why they were important and unique. I love the professor too. She is such a sweetheart.

I'm retaking Anatomy and Anatomy even though I passed it two years ago. I needed a refresher since it has been so long. While its a tid bit annoying I don't think that I will have too much trouble with it. I'm hoping that it will be an easy A.

Then there is Chemistry and Chemistry Lab. It is defintely interesting but its hard to concentrate sometimes. I'm hoping to get an A- to a B in this course. It will be more challenging to me since I have not had it for three years.

My Intro to Professional Nursing is rather dull right now which annoys me. I was hoping we would be doing more then what we are. While I don't feel it is a waste of time, I think that talking about study habits and how to read is more for freshman and transfer students like the rest of us in this class.

My final class is Psychology. It is just general psychology and I think it will be an easy A. I have covered most of it in other classes anyway.

I envy my Lil Sis, she gets to take human sexuality (stamps paw and pounces on Lil Sis's tale) I was wanting to take that but couldn't fit it in. Luck Lil Sis.

Kitten is also feeling a little surpised. After having no contact with James for most of the summer, he calls me up yesterday. We had a long, rather odd talk. Not going into details right here and now. However it made Kitten realized that she not only missed her ex but also a good friend, that I haven't seen in forever. {sighs} life is to complicated but oh well. Alas, I need to go and prepare for lad {Kitten strides off to go find her googles and mixtures. Time for chemistry ;)

Kitten's Easter Break

Kitten walks into blog rather slwoly today a little sad. I broke up with Mark yesterday. It was the right thing to do but still... I feel bad. I don't know what I was think. It never would have worked and I should feel bad. This is my fault. I just cannot be in a typical relationship right now. It would have to be open but most guys I know are wanting something more serious. People say that it is usually the guys who do not want anything long term. Well, that's not quite right. I know plenty of guys who want exactly that, which lives Kitten with her studies, yet again.

It is Easter Break. Other than my break-up, all has gone well. I was restless Wednesday however but Thursday my Lil Sis and I went on a walk and that helped. The weather here has been so nice. I love it! Yesterday the high was 80 and I was sitting outside a good part of the day.

Five weeks until school is out and Kitten is so excited. Next year is going to be very busy, though. I will have

1)Finacial Analysis, MWF 1-1:50

2)Managerial Accounting, MWF 10-10:50

3)Business Finance, T&R 10:40-12

4)General Fitness, T 9-9:50

5)Fundamental of Math, MWF 9-9:50

6)Images and Muslim Women, T&TR 1-1:50

7)and Computer Programming. MWF 2-2:50

I was just going to take College Algebra but I thought a refresher course would be nice and I wanted to take it with my Lil Sis. The General Fitness is rather annoying because it is only worth one credit but it's required, so I don't have a choice. The good thing about it is that my Lil Sis will also be there. Images and Muslim Women is an ID course that we have here at my college and I think it will be interesting. Financial Analysis is just another title for Intermediate Accounting III. Also, I annoyed that the Computer programming course is so late in the day. I'm used to getting done by 2. It's been that way ever since by Freshman year. There ruining my record! How rude.

I finished the book, A Long Way Gone: Memoirs of a Boy Soldiers. It was great but in a sad inspiring way. It is so sad what happens to these kids and the hell they go through both during and after the war. While going through the war sounded horrible, the rehibilatation sounded pretty bad also. It would be so hard to help these kids get on track again. I'm currently on the look out for my books about child soldiers and have found two that I plan to order Monday, when I go the bookstore that sells the.

Oh {Kitten says, holding her tail to her head } my head is killing. I have had a headache all day. Why?

Confession of a Kitten Part III

{Kitten sit in front of window watching the butterflies and hummering birds go by and reflecting on the past few weeks}

Kitten has been rather busy, too busy, and not all of it has been good type of busy. I think everyone nows that I am no longer seeing James. While this transition has been difficult for me, I don't think I realized just how difficult until just a few days ago.

I started seeing a new guy, "Alan," he was slightly younger than James, and much more of a player, more sophicated, more...everything. I thought he was what I needed. After the appropriate time passed, I figure I would have an open relationship with him. Preferrably with no string attached, but James made me realize that this isn't what I want.

While I have tried to convince everyone that Jame's and mine's relationship was pretty simple, there really was nothing simple about it. I am really in love with him and have been for some time. I wanted it to be just sex, excitment but it wasn't. Things might have started out pretty innocent and simple but they got complicated at some point and time.

For the sake of my lil sis's curosity, I'll go into a little, but not too much detail about "Alan." I met him last summer. He flirted, I firted that was pretty much it. Unlike, most of Jame's friends, I did seen him off and on the past year. James does not like him an he had always made that know. I think that may have been my reason for meeting him about three weeks ago. He called and asked if I wanted to have lunch. I didn't think it would hurt anything so I went and had a good time. Alan was easy to talk to, easy to be with but then again, aren't all players? Yes, I knew he seen alot of women and that he liked to party. He defintely lives life to the fullest. I thought that it would be fun to just flirt, live a little. I would never sleep with him. I have a rule to never be with someone until I have been dating them for a at least 6-8 months. If the guy won't wait...we'll there's plenty of fish in the sea right :)? Anyway, I knew that Alan wouldn't be bothering with me for long, I'm just not his type but there's nothing wrong with having a little innocent fun right?

Well James didn't like that idea. Not too sure how he found out about me seeing Alan but he did and two nights ago a two and half telephone lecture. While I don't care much for being lectured{who does?}, I'm glad he did call there were a lot of things that I didn't know about Alan. He's not the type of guy I want to be around nor should I. My lil sis said the other day that I had a bad habit of putting myself in danger where men are concerned. At first I didn't think so but on second thought, I'm starting to believe she's right. I have done some pretty stupid things where men are concerned. I'm going to try and stop that.

Speaking of making a resolution, I'm no longer planning on seeing guys who are older than 4 years. Other than having a job or being in college, having a car, having good health care/hygine, and decent looks that is all I'm looking for. While the list my seem long, I find it reasonably, espcially if I plan to have a future with him. Now my lil sis, does this make you feel better :)

To Breaha: Confessions of a Kitten

{Kitten raises her cute little furry head at the sound of a familar footfall and get's up to give her best friend attention. Purring and rubbing up againt Bri with welcoming attention}

Kitten went to her best friends graduation today. Breaha has been one of my best friends since I can remember. We have went through a lot of things together (first crushes, first loves, breakups, other friends, family problems) but I realized that I have a whole another life that Breaha doesn't know about, or atleast not much.

Well, Bri, here's my sordid little story;) Now before I begin my narrative I need to state somethings. There are many thing that I have done that I'm not proud of. I know you're not religous but I try to be. A lot of what I have done I regret mostly for religous reasons and is the main reason why I have ended things with James. I don't want to feel like a hypocrite anymore. I know that you don't agree with a lot of the Catholic dogma and doctrine but I know that you know the importantance of following your conscience and doing what you, not other people believe what is right. These are all my dirty little secrets. Now we are even. No secrets between friends:)

The Meeting

As you know Bri, James and I met in Chicago at the Palmer House. I wa 18 and he was 42 but I didn't know it at the time. Actually, I orginally had his age at about 35. I was bored and mom had already went to bed but it was only 8 pm. Not ready to turn in I went down to the pool. James was the only one down there, we wound up talking. I'm not going to bore you with the maundane details of what we talked about. He asked me to dinner the next day and I went. Mom always goes to bed so early it was easy to slip away unnoticed. We exchanged cell phone numbers and email address.

Nothing happened for all most a year. My senior was innocent, pretty much. I had my little fling with Brian and we both now how that tunred out. Actually, it was James who pushed me to break with him. When I told James how Brian acted when I mentioned him, James got very concerned and told me that Brian sounded too dangerous for me. He was really there for me when I was going through that break up. Not that you weren't their for me, Bri{Kitten gives Breaha a big hug}. It's just that you both were there for me in differen ways.

What I Really Did Last Summer

Things really started to heat up between James and I last summer, after I had gone through those damned summer classes. I was feeling a little lost and I was a little out of control, although you never seen me when I was like that. No one ever knew that I was sneaking off to see a guy between my shopping trips with you and my long days at home. I was surprised, I thought I would be found out. It seemed so exciting.

It was in July that I first started sleeping with James. Before him, I had never really cared that much about sex but with James it was so tender and erotic. I was confident in himself which made me confident. When the guy feels unconfortable with the way he looks or performs then it makes me uncomfortable also. I'm not going to overshare here but suffice to say that he really brought me out of my shell where the bedroom is concerned.

We also went places together. He took me to England, France, and Mexico. Remember when everyone kept asking me if I would nervous when I left at Christmas to go to Mexico for Intercambio. Everyone thought that it was the first time out of the country{Kitten smiles mischievously} it wasn't, which was why I wasn't nervous. That and James was at the Cancun airport to meet me.

You might me asking yourself, "How did she manage to do this?" Well, it wasn't that hard really. While we(you and I) went out once a week, there were a few weeks inbetween where we didn't go out. It was during those few weeks that I went off globe trotting. As for mom, I told her some lame story that she knew was a lie but I was of legal age (19) and she just trusted that I knew what I was doing.

But wait. I said I went a little wild and having a little tete-a-tete with an older man isn't all that while. {Ok Bri, I know your shaking your heading and disagreeing with me but be a good audience and play along;) } It didn't do anything all that wild guess. I did get pretty close to being drunk a few times. I flirted (playfully, mind you) with a few very handsome men, who, rumor has it, have very shady pasts. I also did something else but I feel so ackwarded saying it which I don't know why. It's actually really funny. Maybe I'll tell you in private. It was what I considered one of my most wildest things I have done;)

All right Bri, there it is, with the exception of one little thing, here are all my secrtes. Rereading what I wrote, it doesn't sound all that exciting but I'll leave the judgement up to you.

{Kitten flicks her tail in goodbye and dissapears around the corner.}