Quick Chat

{Kitten comes stomping into blog and muttering to herself about the weather...} More snow  and now they are saying that there is going to be ice to : ( This just isn't fair {stamps furry little paw in fury}. No more snow! It seems as if we just get everything cleared off the roads when and the grass is starting to peek and then we get dumped on. The thing that I don't like about it is that it is supposed to get icy which means that Kitten won't be able to go home tomorrow.
My Lil Sis is a sneaky little thing. I just sound out, via Facebook, that she is in a relation. You have some explaining to do when I get a hold of you Lil Kitten. I'm always the last to know lol.
So much homework and three test to study for. I personally think it is rather cruel for my professor to give all their test on the same day. I do believe that they got together and colloaborted their test just so I would have to send my entire week with my nose in a book and anxiety levels on high. Mean professors.

Flirtations

"Bojour"Kittens says as she struts into blog a little jittery after the third cup of coffee. This year has gotten of to a wonderful start :) I have recently been looking over my upcoming classes this semester: Microbiology, Micro lab, Physiology, Physiology lab, Mental Health Nursing, Technical Writing, and last, but not least is Cognitive Psychology. Thinking about my upcoming pysch class made me think about last summer and and particular someone ; )

This week has actually been decent, unlike most of the others where I was ready to pull my hair out. Between tests and papers and quizes I have aches and sleepless nights all the time.

Kitten has a problem that she has never had before: I can't get a guy off of my mind. I meet him over summer break. I actually connected with a guy and that hasn't happened in a long time. I meet guys I find attractive all the time but I never really connect, except for this time. He had Personality Psychology together. I noticed him on the first day because of the way he was dressed. Unlike all the other guys who came in jeans and some other unremarkable shirt, he had on dress pants, a white dress shirt {Kitten just adores a man who wears white and pulls it off well}, and a white cap. Normally, hats have never really been a factor but he pulled it off very well. He definitely went to a guy and ran quiet a bit. I think he might have been in the army or had been at some time because one day he came in and his shirt had Army written on it. That is another thing I liked about him. He did not always wear dress clothes. Sometimes it was jeans and a regular shirt, other times it was sweats, and then, more often than not, dress clothes. I like a man who has a sense of variety and style.

I know he was interested in my. He leered enough while I was walking to my car. It did make me slightly uncomfortable but I was trying to get his attention so what do I expect? He walked me to my car several times and we usually talked before class started.

I do believe he had a wild side. His friend, who was also in the class looked, somewhat dangerous but than again I am somewhat of a scardy kitten. There was just something about him, but....oh well.

There is a possibility that this particular someone is in my upcoming class. What if he is? I have never thought about a guy for this long but maybe its because it has been awhile sine my last real full fledged relationship. I do not count that run in with Mark last winter a romance. No I have not be been a true relationship since James. Maybe I am just mistaking a connection for lust? I suppose it doesn't matter. Kitten needs to get her shower.  

Kitten huffs and puffs as she drags her heavy laptop into the blog behind her. Right not I am working on my Security class projects, of which I am very much behind. I'm running some sort of scan and it looks like it is going to take awhile, so I thought that I'd drop in.

I'm rather excited. It might be possible that I have a few new blogs to read. They are not near as good{definetely not as juicy} as my last ones but, my favorites are no longer around, so Kitten must move on. This particular blog that I am excited about is not one written by a lady of the night, but she still has a rather unique point of view that I like. Actually, she has several books out. I have just started to read one of them and love it. I haven't yet decided if her blog is interesting enough, though. I might do some investigating later tonight.

Kitten is rather uncertain how her current relationship with Mark is going to turn out. There nothing there. No spark, passion, not even common interest, and the biggest thing is I haven't heard from him in a week. I'm not sad but I feel the need to return his ring to Christina. I feel ackward wearing it when I feel absolutely nothing for the guy. I guess, I was a little intrigued in the beginning, but I've seem to have lost interest. Wow, for some reason that sounds so mean but I can't help it. He's a nice guy but we don't have one thing in common, I'm not attracted to him, and he holds none of the qualities that I am looking for.

Kitten Second Week of School

Kitten gets up and stretches her slender body. A long day of working and stdying makes a kitty very tired and stiff. The past two weeks have been soooooo hectic. I can't believe the amount of homework that I have nor can I believe the little time that I have to do it in!

In Intermediate Accoutning I have case studies, problems in Wiley Plus, other assigned projects, a test to study for (already!) and a twelve page Sarbanes-Oxley Act paper that I have to research.

Intermediate French has not been so bad, well as far as homework but everyone is so much better than I am. {sighs}. I'll need to study alot to keep up. I actually just finished a French essay about my family just a little while ago.

Management and Systems Analysis and design probably tie for the easiest and most stress less classes. As long as I read the material I think I should do fine.

Philosophy is an interesting class but I really don't want to be taking it. I just have some many other classes that need attention and this professor expects us to send two to three hours perday studing this. Ugh :(

I love the teacher I have for Statistics. She Chinese and so nice but she is a little strict. The class hasn't been as bad as I thought it would be but I took my first quiz Wednesday and I know I didn't do that well. I put the upper bound in front of the lower bound{which is what you are supposed to do}. I also had some difficulty with the different type of sampling.

My social life has been... chaotic. Don't really want to get into it right now and don't really have time. Little Italy Festival is coming up soon. I'm actually a little excited. We're taking two Chinese and one Japanese girl with us Sunday :) I'll try to post something of more interest of the weekend.

Kittens Updates

{Kitten is justing coming in from frolicking on this beautiful summer evening. There's a nice breeze, the humidity is down, and its just comfortable :) }

Kitten apologizes neglecitng her blog lately. Manything have been happening. Some good, some bad, and others juts annoying.

I suppose I say that Johnthan is no longer a problem. James said he had that he took care of it, whatever that means. I'm glad, I have to say, I was a little spooked but what's even more creepy is the fact that I might I have been in contact with him and didn't know it. James thinks he was talking to me via email, during my little project back in April. Oops :( Yeah, James gave me a lecture about how stupid that was and suffice to say he now knows all my sites. {Pouts and whine about lack of privacy}

Other then being lectured, James did talk to me about other things of the past few weeks. He apologized for his proposition. He said that he never meant to make me like a whore and that wasn't his attention. Actually, he said that out of his female acquantices that I was probably the most innocent. Know my Little Sis thinks I'm wordly but I know that Lady Aurora woud probably disagree.

I guess maybe I did feel a little strange at the offer but it wasn't the offer itself. It was the fact that I really wanted to take him up on it. I wanted to be his mistress. I wanted to be wild and uninhibited. I wanted, just once, to say yes instead of no. James did say that me turning down his offer actually made him respect me more, although he wished he could be with me more than one or two night everyother month.

I have now come to turns with my decision. My main problem was that I was looking at saying to his offer as a closed door but its not. By saying no I said yes to a more normal life. I might have a wilder and more lucrative time but I'll get to have all sorts of fun with my Lil Sis. We'll get to live together, go shopping, to events at school, meet guys, and just me normal college girls. I'm fine with that now. Besides, I lost focus for awhile. I once said that I would never let a man come between me and my friends and even though that was not what James ment to do, by any means, I would not have gotten to be with Little Sister much had I been James mistress.

Now, I did not come to this conclusion over the course of last week. Actually, had you asked me Friday if I was going to change my decision, I would have definetly said yes. I had planned to call James when Lil Sis and I got back but something happened. Lil Sis gave me the prettiest little fan she bought at the faire. While at first, I only looked how pretty it was in the car and my only thought was that on annoyance because I couldn't have gone and watched Lil Sis get hit on by a bunch of girls, something dawned on me later that night while looking at it. The fan shows two geshia girls both looking at the fishes in a pond and both very pretty. They are also different. One is staring directly in the pond with a mostly blue with some pink robe. She looks coy; likess she's hiding a secret and musing about it. The other girl is in mostly pink with some red. She looking at the fishes, her hands half hiding her face;likes she daydreaming about her new found lover. These two represent Lil Sis and I but it was not just the dress and the way the looked, it was the the whole unseen sceme that seemed to be around. One hiding a secret and the ther blushing innocent at the thought of her new love interest. I then started to wonder what I would have painted the next picture as{well, if I could paint} The first thing that came to mind was the two girl geshia girls laughing under a cherry blossom tree or with there family. I didn't think of putting them with there respective lovers and that's when it dawned on me. I didn't really want to move away from my family and best Lil Sis, if I had been ready I would have thought about the two geshia with their paramour, right off the bat. {Yes, I'm being a little dramatic here and you must remember, that this musing took place. Now see Little Sis, you were apart of my decision making and didn't even now it:) }

My Infuriating Day

{Kitten paces restlessly and anxiously about blog, jumping at every little sounds she hears}

How is it that things can be perfectly fine and oh so nicely boring and the next day, wham!, complications abounds. I hate drama!

Little Kitten-chan and I went out last night and had a perfectly good time until the storm. Then I had to practically pull Little Kitten out from under the car seats {there there Little Kitten, everythings all right :) } We had quite a little storm. I thought the lightening was rather beautiful and poetical but no apparetnly agreed with me. Well, anyway, Little Kitten-chan spent the night and we had a lovely game of Battle of the Sexes with someone special to my little sis ;)

Today started out well but went quickly down hill. I was a little grumpy and everything that my father said to me was like nails on a chalkboard {I detest that sound}. Then, we I got home and was able to check my email I found a rather cryptic message from someone I known, whom shall hence be called Johnthan. He said that he wanted to talk to me about something and asked if I could call him at 8 pm my time. Now, I'm not in the mood a mystery today and was rather annoyed by such a vague letter practically demanding me to contact him at his convince. At first I was going to ignore it but then decided to go ahead and call so I could tell him off.

Now, before I proced, I shall give a very brief tale of how I know this man. It was during my 1st term in October that I first met him. James had me come with him to NY. It was one of the few times I was able to get away for the weekend. {You know, its really heard to try and come up with a plusable story that both friends, family, and work will buy} That Saturday, he took me to a party to some of his friends. I have never been all that crazy about crowds, two to five is usually my comfort level, but there were a lot of people there. I knew no one there so I was pretty much glued to James side. We got into a large group and I lost him. So here I was, all alone in this crowd when a very nicely dressed, tall and imposing man comes up to me{ I descripe him as very well looking and he is but... there is something about him ... } He starts to talk and makes me feel slightly more comfortable. We finally found out way out of the crowd and set down. He talked and flirited with me for about 5 minutes until James found me. I was relieved to see him because even though Johnthan had made me feel less anxious around other people, I felt the need to be on my guard while I was with him. James, obviously did not like him, and he did admit that he knew him but refused to tell me how or anything about him. As a matter of fact James told me not to speak to him again and we left the party soon after wards. I brought Johnthan up again but he refused and still does refsue to tell me anything about him. All James would say is to stay away from him because he's not a good guy.

After that night, I have never had any contact with Johnthan again nor desired to and once my annoyance and temper wore off began to wonder. What did he want and a better question still, how did he get my new number? I've only had this phone for about 2 weeks. I tried to get a hold of James to ask him what this might be about but couldn't. I am too much of a scardy cat to call him. I thought maybe I should wait and see what James has to say.

My Mysterious Friday Night

{Kitten emerges from her walk outside and settles down on velvet cushion, ready to tell the readers of her mysterious night Friday}

Well, Friday did not start out the best that great. I was feeling rather grumpy and out of sorts, not to mention I could not do anything right. Little Sis and I were supposed to go out but both of us had unforseeable problems. She had work and I had an appointment. I was a little upset{not at anyone in particular, just life} when James called. He was rather cyrptic and said that he was coming to see me.

He picked me up at 9:30 and we went to where he was staying, which was about an hour and half away. We just caught up in the car. He was making me both curious and nervous because he still had mention the reason for his impromtu trip. We got to his hotel and we ordered room service. For awhile, we just ate in companionable silence but I could tell there was something on his mind. I wanted to ask but was afraid too. While we're just friends now, I was afraid there was something something he was hidding from me.

About half way through diner, he started to ask how I had been feeling and if there was anything new that I wanted to tell him. Well, at first, I was rather annoyed and thought that he was the one who seemed to be hiding something not me. After all, he was the one to call this little tete-a-tete. He waited for my answer and when I told him that everything was fine and nothing note worthy had happened in the last week and half he looked at me a little exasperated.

We finished dinner and desert but he still kept looking at me rather oddly. Finally, he just blurted out "Are you pregnant?" I couldn't help it, I just started laughing. That was what he had been so concerned over. After I had finished laughing at his expense I relieved him with the news that he was not to be a daddy anytime soon, unless he knew something that I didn't:) In truth, Kitten is certain she is not expecting any wee little one's is because she is on her time of the month{unfortunately, sighs}.

After James realized that he was not going to have to go out and buy cigars anytime soon, he laughed about it himself. To be fair to him, if you didn't know me on a personal basis, you might of thought I'd the signs of pregnancy too. I was a little upset to my tummy but that not unusal for me. Anything too greasy and my stomach rebels. I was also moody but in my defense I was PMSing.

I did ask him what he would had done if I had been pregnant. He knows I'm very pro-life so he knew better than to bring that up. He said that he would have taken over financial support of the baby and me. We both knew and still know that marriage is not an option for either of us but he said that he would have been apart of his/her life. {Sighs staring out window wondering what might have been and afraid to think of what will be}

Once that was sorted out we had a nice time talking. Unfortunately, I had to get back home because I had to be in at work at 8. I didn't get any sleep whatsoever:(

The Mysterious Encounter

{Kitten scurries into blog, slipping and sliding as she goes in her haste.}

I was supposed to tell about my about my night with Christina, and I shall, but I must tell you about an interesting and unsettling experience that I had earlier this afternoon.

Breaha and went out for a walk at about 6ish. Sportland Park was so full so we decided to go to Sacared Heart. There were a few highschool guys there but we didn't pay them any attention and they didn't pay us any attention. We stayed there for about 45 minutes but Bri-chan started to feel sick, so we left. We walked down the alley which is rather on a steep hill. At the botton, we meet a white big Mercury(I think) and it had three rather good looking guys in probably, their early to mid twenty. They stopped the car when they seen us. I first thought that they were just letting us by. Then, the one guy in the back sit stuck his head out the window, waved me with his hand, and told me to come here. I just stared at him. I had a really uneasy feeling. He told me to come here again. I ran over to Bri and we went on. The guys didn't say anything again but procedded up the alley.

Bri didn't think it was such a big deal but it freightened me. The way he looked at me, the way he commanded me... I got this really bad vibe. I didn't now then and if they wanted directions or something, why not just ask me from where I was standing, I was close enough, they wouldn't have had to yell. Actually, the guy was so quite that Bri didn't even here him. There was no reason why I had to come up to the car. So, with that and the bad vibe, could their intentions have been less then honorable?

On the other hand, none of the guys in the car, including the one who spoke to me, said anything crude. He didn't try to get out of the car when I ran across the street. So maybe my imgination and shyness got the better of me? In this case, I'm glad I'll never find out.

A Rather Mellow Day for Kitten

General

Kitten has decided to start blogging a little earlier. I've been waiting till closer to night-time and have been putting off ma francais, which is not the way to learn it:)

{Kitten yawns and streches her little back and legs. "So tired"} I really don't have that much to write today.

Let's see, my father is insisting that I take a medical terminology course. I know the reason why, but, come on, I'm an accouting major. I could be using that time to work on more important things.

James

I got a call and an email from James last night. He wants to see me. I'm so torn. This is over and I just wish he would let it go. He has several girlfriends, who are all more his taste. Our relationship just doesn't work and never will. He's the reason why Kitten got no sleep last night. I miss him. Would some one please hit me and tell to grow up? While I told my story of how we meet and what we did last summer, I never said why and how we ended it. Maybe later this week.

Readers

Kitten is surprised. She seems to have a few readers. Over the past few weeks I have recieved some very interesting emails and thanks for your interest. Well, welcome thanks for reading and feel free to email or comment. {Kitten rubs against visitors}

French

Getting back to my French homework, which is what I really should be doing, I'm rather running behind. Too many workbooks and not enough time{sighs} I wish there was actually a French class I could take but unfortunately there isn't. I have negelected my other blog, which happens to be in French. I will right a post in it tonight.

News

will be posted tonight