Kitten's Frisky Mood

{Kitten struts into blog merrily singing a little ditty that goes like this, "Kittens got a new secret, Kittens got a new secret"}

Some of my closer friends know my love for having a few secrets about myself. I like to keep at least one or two thing unknown, well...for my own little pleasure.

Yes, Kitten has a new secert and it's a really good one. While I was planning to reveal all here, I thought I'd wait a little while. I feeling a little frisky.

Actually I'm just a little too hyped up to sit here and type so bye-bye for now. {walks coyly out of blog with a little sassy mysterious swish to her oh so silkly tail}

A Non Dramatic Post

{Kitten frolicks around blog playful chasing her tail and revelling in this cool down we are currently having}

Kitten realizes that her past post have been rather on the dramatic side of late. In my defense I have been having problems but I'm sick of talking about me, well, atleast the unhappy me. God did not promise us a happy, fair life so I might as well suck it up and get over it. I made my bed and now I have to lie in it.

I updated my goals. I had pretty much gotten through my last list made back in freshman year {highschool}. Here it is:

~Learn French fluently

~Study abroad

~Graduate College

~Become a CPA and/or CIA

~Do something I consider exciting

~Visit two countries I have not been to

~Fall in love

I've given my myself until 7-18-15 to complete this list. Let's see how it goes :)

School will be starting up in a 5 weeks! I so excited. I still have a lot to pick up but I'm starting to get things in order and organized. I just hope I can finish up my French book before class starts again. That reminds me. When classes start, probably the second or third day, I need to get in contact with my advisor and Monica so we can get things started.

That reminds me, I haven't posted in a while, so some may not know that my classes have been cancelled. I wasn't too happy about that but what really made me made was the fact that they didn't bother to send the email out until yesterday. I drove all the way into ISU, walked all the way to the build, and then, when I got to the room, found out the classes had been cancelled due to lack of enrollment. There were seven people in the class including me. I think they could have had it. If we cancelled classes at my college like that we would never have classes. I have had about four classes with seven or less people and I'll have three classes this coming term with less people.

My Lil Sis and I went out earlier this week and saw the 6th Harry Potter. It was good but I was a little distracted... we had a good time anyway. Christina was supposed to come with us but she was not able to come at the last minute.

Well Kitten better be getting to her kitty bed and counting mice in her dreams because it's way past his little feline's bedtime. See you next week.

{Kitten sits in front of window wondering how one gets to where they are and how does one deal with what they have become}

Now, I don't mean to sound dramatic here, but for the past few weeks I have had some pretty big internal changes that I'm not sure how to deal with. I asked my little Sis today what her younger self would have of herself know. Did she think she had changed all that much from when she was younger and, if so was it a good or a bad change. I posed the similar question to Aurora and got two very different answers. We'll I'm not at liberty to tell what she said but I was rather non commental on it when they asked me.

Honestly, most of the things that I have done, even some of the more wilder things, did not surprise me. It was not really out of character for me to do that. There are somethings though... I thought I was finally ready to talk about it but not yet, at least not openly. I just got off the phone with Aurora, both she an my lil sis know I'm righting a post tonight. My lil sis thinks that I'll reveal my secrete but after some thought, I realize yet, that I'm not quite ready. Aurora sensed my mood and told me that she was going to be writing something that I should look at. I refer my lil sis to Aurora's post. If there's anyone else reading this, I'm sorry but I'm afraid you'll have to wait.

Family Problems

{Kitten is tired and curled up in a ball on velvet cushion enjoying her last few days of freedom.}

Kitten had a very annoying day at work this morning. First off, two people came up and asked me if I was related to Doc. Well, yes I'm his daughter but no one is supposed to know that so I said no very politely and ignored them. I look a lot my father and they knew I was his daughter. The two people stood at the end of the hall and would occasionally look over at me{I was waiting for Doc to get out of the room to ask him something for Alice}I apparently look alot like AnneMarie too because I have had three people ask me this month if I was her. I see AnneMarie alot now since she moved back to Indiana and we don't like all that alike. I'm so sick of people talking about me. Don't they have anything better to do!

Alice obviously doesn't think I can hack being an accountant. She thinks that I should go into medicine too, "considering my relations." Well, I don't want to be a nurse, nor a doctor, nor anything else in the medical area. Why can't people just support my decision. I'm starting to get what I want figured out but I have all these people coming in and practically telling me I'm doing the wrong thing. I just want to be left alone and do what I think is right for me, is that so much to ask? I don't care if everyone in my family{with the exclusion of about two people} is medical. It's not for me. I like accounting and I like French. I'm good at it, why can't they accept that?

Kitten Work and Love

{Kitten is scurrying this way and that trying to multitask and failing mesieribly.}

My Econ class starts Monday and I have so many things to do. Thakfully I'm starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel.

I have come to realize that alot of this drama between James and I is mainly my fault. When I don't have something that keeps me occupied most of the time then I get to thinking, which isn't always good. I think once I start my class and I'm busy most of the time I would have all this time to think.

But speaking of James, our relationship has changed somewhat, or maybe it is just starting to be the way we wanted it. This is an open relastionship. He sees other people and if the oppertunity persents itself I will too. When I was younger I never understood why people had open relationships. I do now. He has his own life and I have mine. Our circumstances do not premit it to have a normal relationship and of course we are both going to meet other people who we connect with. This relationship has always been open but rather one sided because I never really thought about me seeing anyone even though I knew he was seeing other people. I wasn't jealous but I felt it would be like cheating if I seen another guy.Ok, I'm telling myself I can see other people but deep down, honestly, I would still feel guilty. Damn it I don't want to feel this way... I don't want to be be in love. Life is so unfair and lying to yourself doesn't work:(

Not much else has been going on of late. I've been busy, Bri's been busy, Aurora you're always busy. We'll I'll talk to yu all next week :)

Kitten's Ramblings

This summer is going by so quickly, I'll be in summer classes starting July 13 through August 13. I shan't be posting too much because I'll have two classes.
This summer and last summer are so different. Last summer I was doing a lot of things I shouldn't have been doing and just living in the moment. I wasn't that emontional. This summer, though, has been the complete opposite. I haven't done all that much except study. I've been very very very emotional. I kind feel like I'm revisiting my mid teens. I hate this feeling. Hopefully when school starts and Lil Sis and I move into the dorm, life will take on some semblence of normalacy. Maybe? Right now my love life is in very strange life, my social life is pretty much just with Lil Sis, and my work life takes the majority of my time. {sighs}


Tomorrow's the 4th. I have thought about calling Cowgirl and seeing if she wants to go and see a movie but I just can't seem to get the least bit excited about it. I think I just want to stay home and read my new book.


I hope Lil Kitten-chan and I can go shopping next week. It will be our last chance for a month. She has work, I have classes. Can some one shoot this Kitten now and put her out of her meisery.

Kitten's Horrible Messed Up Day :(

{Kitten walks into blog with her tail dragging the ground. She walks right past her bowl of creme and velvet cushion to lay in the corner by herself}

Kitten has had a very very very very lousy day. I called ISU today and asked if they had ever recieved my application. The man oh so nicely informed me that it had been processed on the 15! I have been waiting and waiting for some sort of conformation for over half a month and nothing! Then when I activated my account and tried to login it wouldn't let me. I spent an hour with the damned things trying to get it to work.

Well, 11 o'clock rolls around and I'm still messing with the stupid thing when A---, wanting to know why I wasn't there to releive E--- for lunch. At this point, I was a very confused Kitten because I had no knowledge whatsoever of going to work in the office. I knew I had to do the medicine run, which I was going to start in Clinton and do backwards. At this point i was really pissed because I had many plans today and I still had to get my computer fisaco finished but I went to Rockville early anyway.

When I got there, E---- was all ready at lunch and G--- was manning the phones. So why did they think they needed me in there in the first place?! I had planned to pick up all lab work at 12:30 and come to Rockville but I went over to the Clinton office at 11:10 and they said that it wasn't ready, which I allready knew it wouldn't be. So at 12:30, I left Rockvile and went back to Clinton. E--- hadn't bothered to get all the many papers and whatnot together so I left billing office paper work Rockville. By the time I realized the error I was all ready in Clinto and didn't see a point in stopping by the billing office, which was a big mistake.

I got back to Rockville and tell A--- that I goofed. She told me that I had to make yet another trip back to Clinton to the billing office to get the papers because she needed info from those sheets today. So off I went back to Clinton and picked up the blasted papers and made my merry little way back to Rockville to give the papers to A---. After that I had to go back to Clinton, get mother and aunt, and go to Terre Haute.

I had some things I had to pick up for the dorm: a comforter, 3 drawer thingy, and sheets. I had picked up a pink table earlier that morning thinking that my comforter was going to be pink and purple. Well, when I got down there, they didn't have the one I wanted. I did, however find a very pretty lavender and blue one. Except I goofed again; I picked up full intead on twin so know I have to take it back. That not the only thing I have to return, though. There is no pink in this comforter and so the table won't match. I have to exchange it for a blue one. I repeat: It Has Not Been My Day :(