Kitten's been cleaning all day and not quite done just yet but its break time. I've done some switching around with rooms. We started at 8 and I had to stop at 12 to go to Rockville and clean their.
My father's house keeper is on vacation so I volunteered. My mother didn't want me to. She said that's not my job to clean up after my father's wife. I understand her feelings. She was my father's mistress and I still think she has something for him after all these years.
I really don't care who I'm cleaning for, I just like to clean. It's fun and relaxing. The fact that it's for his wife doesn't matter. In a way I feel sorry for her even though she a bitch most of the time (to everyone). She's been lonely and unhappy for a long time. I think they've been married for close to, if not, 30 years. The both emontionally left the marriage long ago, though, and that's even if they ever loved each other.
I called J--- Tuesday night and ended it. I can't be with him anymore. He lied to me, made an idot of me, and made me do things I shouldn't have done. I don't hate him, I even forgive him, but I cannot forget what he lied to me about and how long he did so. I wish him well, but I don't want to see him anymore.
I was a wreck Tuesday and yesterday wasn't much better but today I don't feel so sick and hurt. I know that it was better to end. The sad thing is I still love him even after I found out.
Breaha was able to make me feel better. She finally emailed and commented on my page on FaceBook. While she doesn't have a clue about what happened, it helped just to talk to her. She's my best friends. I hope that she would be able to forgive me for not telling her all that really happened. She hasn't been there so she couldn't understand, just like I couldn't understant her break up with her ex.
Kitten's going to go find a chocolaty sanck to munch and a big cup of coffe on for some energy and comfort.
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