Kittens Updates

{Kitten is justing coming in from frolicking on this beautiful summer evening. There's a nice breeze, the humidity is down, and its just comfortable :) }

Kitten apologizes neglecitng her blog lately. Manything have been happening. Some good, some bad, and others juts annoying.

I suppose I say that Johnthan is no longer a problem. James said he had that he took care of it, whatever that means. I'm glad, I have to say, I was a little spooked but what's even more creepy is the fact that I might I have been in contact with him and didn't know it. James thinks he was talking to me via email, during my little project back in April. Oops :( Yeah, James gave me a lecture about how stupid that was and suffice to say he now knows all my sites. {Pouts and whine about lack of privacy}

Other then being lectured, James did talk to me about other things of the past few weeks. He apologized for his proposition. He said that he never meant to make me like a whore and that wasn't his attention. Actually, he said that out of his female acquantices that I was probably the most innocent. Know my Little Sis thinks I'm wordly but I know that Lady Aurora woud probably disagree.

I guess maybe I did feel a little strange at the offer but it wasn't the offer itself. It was the fact that I really wanted to take him up on it. I wanted to be his mistress. I wanted to be wild and uninhibited. I wanted, just once, to say yes instead of no. James did say that me turning down his offer actually made him respect me more, although he wished he could be with me more than one or two night everyother month.

I have now come to turns with my decision. My main problem was that I was looking at saying to his offer as a closed door but its not. By saying no I said yes to a more normal life. I might have a wilder and more lucrative time but I'll get to have all sorts of fun with my Lil Sis. We'll get to live together, go shopping, to events at school, meet guys, and just me normal college girls. I'm fine with that now. Besides, I lost focus for awhile. I once said that I would never let a man come between me and my friends and even though that was not what James ment to do, by any means, I would not have gotten to be with Little Sister much had I been James mistress.

Now, I did not come to this conclusion over the course of last week. Actually, had you asked me Friday if I was going to change my decision, I would have definetly said yes. I had planned to call James when Lil Sis and I got back but something happened. Lil Sis gave me the prettiest little fan she bought at the faire. While at first, I only looked how pretty it was in the car and my only thought was that on annoyance because I couldn't have gone and watched Lil Sis get hit on by a bunch of girls, something dawned on me later that night while looking at it. The fan shows two geshia girls both looking at the fishes in a pond and both very pretty. They are also different. One is staring directly in the pond with a mostly blue with some pink robe. She looks coy; likess she's hiding a secret and musing about it. The other girl is in mostly pink with some red. She looking at the fishes, her hands half hiding her face;likes she daydreaming about her new found lover. These two represent Lil Sis and I but it was not just the dress and the way the looked, it was the the whole unseen sceme that seemed to be around. One hiding a secret and the ther blushing innocent at the thought of her new love interest. I then started to wonder what I would have painted the next picture as{well, if I could paint} The first thing that came to mind was the two girl geshia girls laughing under a cherry blossom tree or with there family. I didn't think of putting them with there respective lovers and that's when it dawned on me. I didn't really want to move away from my family and best Lil Sis, if I had been ready I would have thought about the two geshia with their paramour, right off the bat. {Yes, I'm being a little dramatic here and you must remember, that this musing took place. Now see Little Sis, you were apart of my decision making and didn't even now it:) }